Writing 101 Day 1 - 20 Minute Free Write.

So I know I am behind on starting this and I am doing my best to catch up. Here is my 20 minute free write I did when I had absolutely nothing to do at work/my lunch break.

Sometimes the days go by pretty quickly, while other days drag on and on at a glacially slow pace with no end in sight. Some days I just stare at the walls that are as empty as I feel. I really hate days like these. They allow boredom and depression to overwhelm me in an onslaught of emotions and chronic emptiness that seeps to well up inside my stomach. Growing and growing until it completely consumes me.

How are some people so interesting? How are some people so fun and care free? Why can’t I be like that and not this crappy shell I call home to my soul. I hate thinking about how truly boring of a person I am. It is so pathetic that I hate the realization being brought anywhere close to the forefront. The voices in my head just love chiming in too, as if they make it any easier…their stupid little comments ring in my ears and taut and tease me. Little shits.

All my life I have wanted so badly to be this idea of normal. Or at least just fun. I hate the fact that all I do is get up, go to work, work my day then come home, be boring, go to sleep and press repeat. It’s as though the enthusiasm I once had has been sucked out of me by some big cosmic vacuum. Why can’t I be fun and care free and exciting and full of life rather than this pathetic little shell…

Junk Food Junkie

Doing a quick response to today's Daily Post Prompt: What’s your biggest junk food weakness? Tell us all about it in its sugary, salty, glory.

I LOVE ICE CREAM!!! Ice cream I think will forever be my guilty pleasure, comfort food, weakness. I love Ben and Jerry's ice cream even though they are kind of expensive at $5 a pint. Some of my favorite flavors are:

1. Ben and Jerry's Half Baked. This ice cream is basically as if they threw cookie dough ice cream and chocolate brownie ice cream together into a blender. It is vinilla and chocolate ice cream, cookie dough chunks and brownie pieces. This is usually my go-to ice cream.

2. Ben and Jerry's Chocolate Therapy. This is a CHOCOLATE OVERLOAD!!! Not even kidding, it is chocolate ice cream, chocolate cookie pieces, and swirls of chocolate pudding ice cream. This is litterally a therapy session for when I am feeling down!

3. Ben and Jerry's Phish Food. This is chocolate and vanilla ice cream swirled with marshmellow and caremel with fudge fish.

4. Private Selection Moose Tracks. This is a really good cheapy-store brand ice cream. It is either vanilla, chocolate or mint ice cream with peanut butter cups (the vanilla) or fudge cups (all the others) with fudge!

So those are my food weaknesses. Hope you enjoyed!

That Girl I Was When I Was Sixteen

I decided to do this post because when I read it I instantly knew what I wanted to talk about and what had been on my heart, so here is my response to today's Daily Post prompt.

"Tell us all about the person you were when you were sixteen. If you haven’t yet hit sixteen, tell us about the person you want to be at sixteen."

At age sixteen I had just finished my sophomore year in high school. I had awesome friends but I was nervous because the two halves of my high school were splitting onto separate campuses. I was afraid that I would loose touch, or worse, that I would get left behind...

On the personal front I was struggling with suicidal tendencies and depression. I had almost no self confidence and hated myself...

I behaved stupidly, allowing myself to act like trash because I thought it would make others like me more, but all it did was portray me in an unflattering light. I allowed myself to be peer pressured and do things that I knew I shouldn't have but never spoke up for fear of being rejected. So many rumors were being spread about me that I hated myself even more.

For my own personal privacy I am not going to reveal any specific details but basically I was a stupid teenager who thought acting that way would get me the kind of attention I wanted, to be liked, cared about, to even be loved. (I did talk about this a bit in another post here).

I had to learn the hard way that that was the wrong path and I didn't have to change myself or behave some way that I wasn't comfortable with or that wasn't me just to be liked. In some ways I am still learning this...

All I can say is that when I was 16 I didn't get a car with a big red bow on it, I wasn't rolling down the highway in a snazzy convertible, I was learning my lessons the harsh way, learning to be myself and change.

I know this post got deep but this was just what was in my heart and in a way this helped me come to terms and accept that I can't change what I did, but I can learn from it.

Thanks for listening, <3 Kimmie

Blogging 201: Day One. My Goals for this Blog.

Today the Daily Post's Blogging 201 challenge started.  I am super excited to be participated in this since I also participated in Zero to Hero (Blogging 101).

For the first post of this challenge I wanted to share with you three goals that I have for this blog, here we go!

1. Publish three times each week through June.  I know I have been sporadic in the past about when I post so this goal is to help me establish consistency and a pattern.

2. Increase my blog traffic by 20% by June. I honestly don't know how many people read this blog but I would love to see my reading base expand. (Also, for those of you out there who do read this it would mean the world to me to leave a comment and let me know you were here. Give me feedback, misc comment, anything!)

3. Finally, I want to create a community. I want to be able to talk to my readers, have conversations and just connect with you out there. 

Hugs from my screen to yours! <3 Kimmie

P.S. Let me know if I should set up a Facebook page for this blog. Also, I have a personal twitter but would it be a smart move to create a separate one for blogging?

Updated: Who am I and why am I here?

Hi everyone! So I am participating in the "Zero to Hero: 30 Days to a Better Blog" challenge, I guess you could say challenge, through The Daily Post blog. I already did a "Who am I" post which I will link here and I just wanted to update it now that I am blogging more consistently and making a goal to do so. So I've got some basic questions to answer just to give you guys a better perspective.

First off, who am I? Well, my full name is Kimberly Elise Clark. I was born June 11, 1995. I am a college student double majoring in psychology and business. Life is kind of complex. I am working and am basically financially independent, going to school full time, and dealing with a hectic home life. Sounds like tons of fun right? Long story short, life is crazy and there are lots of hardships I've had to face throughout my life. On the bright side I have learned a lot and grown as a person.

Why did I start blogging rather than keep a diary? Honestly, I've tried keeping a diary before and I would always just forget or never be sure what to write and I would always just stop writing shortly after I started. When it comes to blogging, I love to write and I can just write about so many random things and to me it is kind of like I am writing to a virtual best friend. That way whoever reads my blog feels like my friend and can get to know me better verses some sterile and boring post.

What should you expect from this blog? One word: RANDOMNESS!!!!! Hahaha. As I touched on above, my life is constant chaos and this blog is basically a "come along with me" in my crazy life. I write about how to survive college, crazy things that happen in day to day life, growing up, and some other misc stuff along the way. Essentially, I want to share the journey I am embarking on and I hope you guys come along with me for the ride!

If I blog successfully throughout 2014, what would I have accomplished? Well, I started this blog about 2 years ago and I would never really call it successful. It was more of me writing an occasional post here and there when I remembered. But by doing this I would feel like I somewhat broke my bad habit of not being able to follow through. (A horrible trait I adopted from certain people I shall not name). However, overall, I just want to create an interesting a fun blog for those of you out there in the blogsphere and be able to create new friends and just be able to do something fun and maybe brighten someone else's day.

Be sure to check out The Daily Post's Zero to Hero challenge here: Click Me! Also, browse around for other interesting content! (They are also in my blogroll!)