Senior Project Day 3

So today is day 3 of my senior project! Today I was catching up on my blog posts and my goals are to get a story board outline and make more calls in an attempt to contact crisis centers and non-profits. 

Here's how it went:

Well I was able to get a hold of some of the crisis centers on my list however, they were ones that were not able to help me. So on the bright side I was able to narrow down the list of where I need to call and try and get a hold of. Fingers crossed that I will get a hold of them soon! But what I am trying to work on is getting my video story boarding and starting to get some recordings that I don't need the crisis centers for.

Have a wonderful day lovelies! 

Throwback Thursday!!! Washington DC and freshman year!

Hey guys! It's Throwback Thursday and I wanted to show you two different times in my life.

EEEP! That's me when I was I think 11 when I went to Washington DC and the surrounding areas with my grandma and grandpa. I just remember it being so incredibly HOT. Oh, and having to wear "walking shoes" and always thinking that they made me look like big foot ha ha ha. This picture was taken in DC right after I had cut about 12 inches off of my hair to donate to locks of love! 

Next Photo.....

This was me in freshman year with Dondei and Misao. I really miss 9th and 10th grade. They were so much fun! I had some of the coolest teachers and everything was so much simpler! Everything was just happy and good and so much less stressful. I was just a crazy kid with a group of equally crazy friends. 

Feeling Alone and Useless :(

Well this is kind of a two part post. First: Alone. Recently I've just been feeling really alone and like a lot of people I thought were my really good friends have been drifting away and like I don't belong around them any more. I feel like whenever I am around this group they are just thinking in their heads "what are you doing here? You don't belong here." And it just really sucks and makes me feel empty inside because its like I don't belong anywhere again. I'm just on the outside while they are this close knit group. My head just keeps saying "they don't need or want you any more." 

I just feel like I don't know where I belong any more...

Second half: Useless. Gah I can't even describe how useless I have been feeling lately. A very good friend of mine has a mentally abusive and extremely controlling boyfriend who pushed her to cutting again  AND who recently snapped and hurt her physically. I was so scared for her and so relieved when she said she told him she never wanted to talk to him again. But.........

Then she started being really depressed saying that she missed him and just wanted to make things right. She spent 4 hours sitting in her car outside her house trying to talk to him. And you know what that bastard did?! He hid behind the cars in the driveway watching as her sister, my boyfriend and myself held onto her while she cried her eyes out in the middle of the street.

She is such a wonderful person who has had a horrible past. She has been surrounded by nothing but controlling guys all her life. She admitted she was addicted to this guy but didn't want to go back to being treated that way. Again that same group was doing everything we could to keep her happy and help her through because we knew it was going to be hard. 

Then another example of his "affection" she had a really bad hypo-glycemic attack and got really sick and he said "well tell her if she needs me I'll be asleep." WTF!!!!!! I'm sorry but if you claim to love someone and they are sick I wouldn't care if they were asleep. I would have charged my but over there as fast as humanly possible just to be there and make sure they were ok.

Then, then the worst of all. SHE WENT BACK TO HIM!!! Oh yes. I call over to her house to see if I can go grab my stuff which I forgot after sleeping over at her house. Only to find out that she has been missing. Where is she? At his house. And her brother was begging her to come home and she doesn't come home till midnight.

AAAAAGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!! I felt so absolutely betrayed and I wanted to slap her and murder him! Plus that snide jackass called my boyfriend a compulsive liar just because he was telling her the truth about him. And then he told me and my bf in the snidest most irritating "punch me now" voice: "I told you she would listen to me." That SOB is destroying my best friend and I can't do anything to stop it! I would give anything just to smack some sense into her!

God Give Me Strength!!!!

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Senior Project - Day's 1&2

Hey interwebies!!! I will be using my blog to post my daily journal entry for my senior project. So here we go:

(For these two days I was working from home)

Day 1: Today I downloaded a movie making software so that when I have video footage I can just enter it in and make it go. I was also doing research on places that I could go to volunteer at and interview the people who work there. (Kind of a slow day but I wrote down several numbers to contact)

Day 2: Today I had my one on one meeting with my project adviser and we sat down and just talked about  the logistics of my project and how I plan on going about it and about how to get it actually out into the community. I sent several emails and left voicemails today to try and contact crisis centers and such about volunteering. Have yet to hear back :(

Dinner with my dad

Woopsies! I accidentally forgot to hit publish! This was supposed to be posted last Friday 4/26

So last night I drove out to Costa Mesa with my sister to meet up with our dad and have a father daughter "date night" I guess you could call it. We went out to this interesting restaurant called "8 Steers." It was a nice restaurant and the server was fun to talk to, however, a bit on the pricey side. If you go I would recommend going during happy hour because things are cheaper.

I got the steak and fries. It was an 8 oz steak with seasoned fries. The steak wasn't as flavorful as it could be but it wasn't bad. After that we went to sonic and got shakes. I got a chocolate oreo cheesecake shake and it was surprisingly pretty good. 

I'm really glad I got to see my dad and even happier that he is making an effort to be more apart of my sister's and my lives.

Blaaaaah catch up

Hey blogging world! I'm sorry I went AWOL again. I have just been crazy busy! Why? Well right now I am in crunch time for my senior year.

Essentially in order to do our senior projects we have to be passing all our classes by this week. So basically for the past couple weeks i have been doing my best to get help and comprehend the things i have been learning in physics, working on a video commercial as my final project for econ and getting grading issues fixed in English. And as sad as it makes me, even though I got my grade up by 7%, I was still 4% away from passing advanced physics.

I'm really bummed because I don't know whether or not I am able to do my senior project because even though I have above a b in all my other classes I still have a 66% in physics. Plus, believe it or not, I have never failed a class before :(

 Then out of no where I check my grade and I GOT A C-!!!!! I don't think I had ever been so excited to have a C in my life.

So that was one of the main highlights of my past month. Will write about the rest in another post!